cloudy
time flies..its the 2nd week of sch..i missed some lesson due to my absense for o lvl english last tue...but with the help of my classmate i was able to keep up the pace for wad the lecture went through..
i told myself this is the last sem and this is my last opportunity to excel..i admitted i said the same thing for the previous semester but ended up failure...along my life i came across ppl who motivate me..inspired me...i am grateful to them...i am fortunate to ahve classmates who help me along the way...though i didn appreciate them during sem 1...i really wish and hope this sem will be my turning point...
i am glad that finally liverpool fc looks like a real title contender...although i only started to support liverpool 3 years ago..i aldy feel i am a hardcore kopites...You'll Never Walk Alone...this simple 4 words might look ordinary to others...but for me it strengthens the bond of those who support liverpool fc...it gives me a senes of belonging and a unexplainable warmth...perharps thats why i became a liverool fan....my passion will never be lesser to those who support longer liverpool fc than i...strangely its like falling in love with someone...u cant explain love isnt ?
the comeback liverpool made for the past few games teaches me not to give up...one game at a time...one step at a time...slowly...but do it with effiency...its like me now...slowly...dun panicked...
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
sunny
another disappointment...hot tomato soup didn called...they fucking said will reply me even ifs a no..fuck them...but after cheesecake cafe exp i had some mental preparation..so ytd i called another job which i also found in the new paper..its a pub waiter job...i went down to paye lebar...the whole environment...hmmm not very " clean "...however the lady boss decided to hire me...shes fast..quick..no dilly dally...perharps she nd manpower badly...but theres one problem...the working hour..its 10 PM to 3 AM !! though theres transport to go home but i does no exp nitelife before...imagine my father sniffing cigrette stain...hes is gonna fucking kill me !
theres another factor which i nd to seriously consider : schwork. i am wry working at the pub might affect my studies due to lack of slp..i told myself this is my last chance to prove myself and redeem my pride...i cant afford to screw up again like i did in previous semester...
jie gave me a number selling kappa at various department store..i jus called...and the answerer said hes not free..its like a tight slap on my face...fuck him..but nvm i bear with it..i gonna fucking call him tml and see wad tricks he play then...if i got it i can work 2 jobs...afternoon shift for kappa then rush to pub and work till 3 am..reach home maybe ard 4am bath slp then work kappa...thats why i plan to stay back do my self revision from the very first day of this coming semester...
i used to work 2 jobs last time..i still rmb...16 years old after my n lvl...downtown east and airport...i only manage to slp 4 hrs a day...but for the kappa cum pub i can afford to slp more though...still i had the exp of working 2 jobs so shlden be a problem...thats wad exp counts...if i didn done that i wouldnt even think of working 2 jobs now...
tml gonna start my eng revision...had nv did any essay after last meeting with cal..after that will be joining sing ho and co for football...
during these days of gloomy mood caused by rejected of jobs again and again which slowly turned me into a walking corpse...theres one thing that lightens up my mood..giving me hope..nonono not any dream gers i fancy...yea its Liverpool FC...first thats the victory against psv where keane scored his first goal for Liverpool FC and stevie g scored his 100th goal for Liverpool FC...then its the comeback which ended moments ago...3-2 at eastland...first we fuck man utd and now its man city...
the pic above is the third goal we scored...thats kyut first goal in the BPL since last nov...nth proud abt but this goal gave us a vital 3 points and stay on the way with temporary leader chelsea...during HT we were trailing 2 goals down...but in the second half we scored 3 goals and staged a dramatic comeback...ues man city did have a player send off for a ugly tackle on xabi..thats was a straight red...no excuse...hey shut up huges...that gaffer was the manager for man city...he will regret for his reaction after he saw the reply...but we scored the third goal after skrtel was off for his injury...
this will definately gave us a major boast on our confident...and i am looking forward to see agger back in action !
ok back to my job hunting...i still havent told my father that i will be working at a pub...however if i were to look at a positive side...this working exp will develop my character building instead of leading me to astray...i will feel more confident when i talk to someone and can kiss goodbye to the bad old shuttering days...sure working at a pub will befriend ppl who was well not gd ppl i suppose...but i believe which friends are gd and which one are bad...as for gers...i seriously doubt i will find any one i can share my trouble and happiness with...looks yes...character...hell fucking no...
life is a gamble...and i am staking with my future on this two pt job....aunt mary kept telling me now is to focus on my studies and dun work at lowly part time job...find a decent one like in an office after i graduate...fuck she dun understand...whenver i tried to explain to her she will change another topic...this pissed me...yes she paid for my sch fees when my father was hard in cash...i reallly appreciate her and told myself i will repay her someday...but she really dun understand my situation...i nd to pay for my hp bill...starhub cable bill...monthly concession...and also my textbooks which i nd to purchase for this coming semester...if i still cant find a job i will spent all my savings and will have trouble paying the coming bills...if i am born well fed i wouldnt care so much...
today ginger des and yf fly to japan...how i wish to join them...sigh i cant possibly paid the air tickets...my father had to pay for the house expenses...i am not my brother...who dun give a shit to this family..yes i didn pay the house eletriciy bills...i am not the only one watching the starhub cable...my father likes to watch chinese news my mother likes to watch animal documentary...even my brother will watch chinese show sometimes...and i used to work from noon to nite...i treat the cable tv as a way to repay my parents debts...though i cant afford luxury food or activities to repay them..
i wishes ginger des and yf bon voyage...i didn sms them coz i dun wan them to misunderstand that this msg is a reminder for them to buy presents for me...no way...their plane left at 1am...they shld be on their way now...
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Friday, October 3, 2008
unknown
STEVE GERRARD GERRARD !!! HE PASS THE BALL 40 YARDS !!!! HES BIG AND HES FOCKING HARD...STEVE GERRARD GERRARD...
Thats Stevie G's 100th goal for liverpool fc...how honoured am i even though i only managed to watch it live in tv and not the kop....how i envy those dear kopites who sat at the kop end...
eventually we won 3-1...in this game robbie got his first goal for liverpool too...and this is rafa 250th liverpool game in charge...3 goals !! triple happiness !!!
usually i will note down the weather of the day...but i wrote unknown for this time...becos even though i leave my house i didn notice nor feel the weather...being jobless had turned me into a walking corpse...its true...i felt dejected ever since i got banned by og...and its hard to find a new job which suits me...i wanted to find a job in FNB...firstly i believe working as a waiter will helps me to speak more confident and inprove my interacting skills...secondly i want to prove to myself that i can work as a waiter...becoz i had a bad exp working as a waiter while in sec 5...
tml i will be going down ps for a walk in interview for a cafe named hot tomato soup...i knew through the papers...theres was also a number which i called asn asked if theres any vacancies...a lady picked up...she jus told me to go down to ps tml for a interview...wtf they put that bitch numnber then ? there stated either call or walk in interview...doesnt it makes that bitch number redundant ? fuck it !!
oct the 1st is our ocp gathering..those who present are ck,eddie,bing rui,lalita,celeste,jon,des,nich,jia hui ginger and me..marcus was busy attending his jap exchange, syamil was well hari raya, melissa....as usual....isolated away from us...sticking with his/her rubby babes, yong feng was buying food for his sec class chalet, gui cant take his off coz his boss dun allow, andrea, surprisingly, MIA while lastly angela was having tution.
This gathering was originally organised by lalita...watching movie painted skin..but i thought of something more...so i organise a k session before movie...unfortunately..not everyone was fond of singing...ck as expected..he refused to dance during our ocp for the children let alone singing for us...celeste did wanted to join us but i think she dun wan to left ck alone so she did not join too...the same goes to lalita...bing rui and eddie are hougang gays...lol so they didn join too.. WARNING FOR EDDIE ONLY IF U HAPPEN TO READ MY BLOG : THIS IS JUST A FUCKING JOKE !
i enjoyed myself i must admit...its fun hearing the others singing...well shout will be a more suitable word...but i dun think i will organise a k session again unless the other gers cfm coming...as i realised the cost is far too high for others...INCLUDING ME AS I AM JOBLESS NOW !!! with the gers around there will be more i fun i believe...no other intention but indeed activities like k are more fun when opposite sexs paticipate at the same time...
after the k session i heard nich said the k need to hire part timers...so i plan to ask tml after asking the hot tomato soup...working at k was not a bad option too...
after the k session we proceed to the cinema upstairs and watch our movies...the show is a love story...i must admit i am touched by the couple in the story....willing to sacarfice their lives to save each other...though i will never tell the others that i am touched...i may appeared cool outside as many of my friends said..but actually i am a sentimental person...i feel for the others...but theres no use letting ppl know becoz i find it meaningless...perharps thats the reason why i dun have many friends...
this is the picture we taken during our dinner at a fuck up place...the food is ex and the food is sux...i ate one raw kang kong...fuck the cook...
after dinner we bid farewell...lastly bing rui eddie des ginger and i stayed at starbuck abt 30 mins or so for a small chatting session...before that lalita said she was waiting for her brother but when i suggested going to tcc she seemed shy and flustered..lol..i think its was her bf who worked at tcc who she was waiting...but i managed to pursuade the others to sit at starbuck...
i realised i was broke as i paid lalita her ballet performance ticket so i went to withdraw..after i am back she had gone...meeting her bf i supposed...i dunno..somehow...i felt being left out..why ? i forbid myself for thinking any wishful design on lalita becoz i understand who the fuck i am...a gd friend of mine dislikes her...but i just think otherwise...she is a gd person a gd girl and a gd friend...but it seemed we dun have much to talk...i admit its a pity that i dun get to know her well...but i believe theres a bright path waiting for me...someone somewhere along the path...
strangely i jus got a feeling that we will not meet together for a lunch or an outing from nxt sem onwards...after our exam perharps NS comes straightly after that...
as uaual tml WILL be a better day..it certainly will !
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