cloudy
11:50pm
today was the third day of work..and also the last day working at tcc raffles xchange...tml i will be working at tcc circular road..aka tcc cr..
my seniors pointed that i need to speed up and take the initiative to do things..they also said i lack the sense of urgency...i am glad that they pointed out my mistake and hopefully i can improve...
ginger and bin went down to visit me...they ordered oreo milkshake..but they leave before i off..
sometimes i wanted to help..but i just dunno how to...an outsider like me should know my limit and..i dun have the right to interfere..
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Monday, April 27, 2009
sunny
10:37pm
today is my first day working at tcc...reported at tcc office, which i went for my interview, at ten in the morning..from there i was briefed by a guy who handed me my uniforms, nametag, badge, aprons and some papers which contains the info of tcc...
lastly a lady briefed me abt the pay scheme and my working outlet..initially i thought was the one located at the city link...but it turned out to be the one at raffles xchange...after changing then i realised..lol
i reached raffles outlet abt 12pm...i was nervous initially...fortunately i worked as a part time server at a pub before...so i roughly know what am i supposed to do to..." make myself busy " lol...i need time to memorise the menu list and hopefully i can adapt to the working lifestyle asap...
heard from the store manager at raffles xchange that i will be stationed at raffles xchange for 3 days...after that i will be station at the outlet located at circuit road...
after i reached home i was tired...phew..maybe i had not been working for a long time...i nearly forgot to bring oscar for a walk...
my cough is getting worse...to the extent i can feel i am training my abs !! lol
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
sunny
2:35am
this morning i received a call from tcc. on the phone was a lady named eunice. she told me i was hired by tcc. i was fascinated to receive their call ! she told me to report at 10:30am on this coming monday, at the office where i went for my interview. after almost 2 mths of job hunting, finally i secured a job. the fact that i found this job without pulling any strings or intro from friends made me proud. hopefully i can settle down asap.
its great to work...i can finally earn my own money without relying on my dear father, who had been supporting me for 21 years. once i receive my first mth pay i can ask my father to stop giving me pocket $. the pay for tcc is $6.30 per hour..if i am able to work 6 days a week 8 hrs per day i will earn quite an amount ! that will be great ! i also could fork out a fraction of my pay to pay our ultilities bills..not much but at least i can help lessen my father's burden a bit...
ytd i met yixuan at tam 1...this is our third time meeting...i saw wei jie at uni glo..he is working there..but hes too busy to chat with me..i understand so we leave shortly after..
we went to tam 1 carls jr for an early dinner...the burger was awesome...i passed the bracelt i got from cambodia to yixuan..the wrapping was awful lol..as i wrapped at the very last min...fortunately yixuan dun mind and from wad i see she likes the braclet very much...
we watched 17 again...initially i thought it will be a boring movie suitable for young gers...watching the cute actor...but i was wrong..its quite a meaningful movie...why ? becoz i felt it is trying to tell us dun ever regret the choices we made in our life and never neglect yr loved ones..instead of kept dwelling abt the past one need to look forward...
after watching the movie we went to buy bubble tea and sat down at a park beside tam mall...we had a great chat..and we chatted abt clubbing stuff..she told me she was with her friends all the time and never danced with strangers...and i think its safer to do that..before we parted yixuan asked me wads my impression for those who went to clubbing..hmm well i dun discriminate those who went but if it will to be my gf it will never be those clubbers who went frequently..becoz i cant accept the fact she got touched by strangers while i do nth...even if she dun wish to dance with strangers but who knows when one is drunk ? yixuan also asked me wads my impression for her ? i said good..thats all...i wonder if i will say the same thing a mth ago...was it because i dun wan her to get the wrong idea ? as time goes by i realised i am not rdy to start any relationship as i need to find a job first..as love is not the most impt thing for a guy but career..a stable job and income...well thats my opinion it doesnt mean i am correct..was it because my feelings to her changed ? e.g when i saw her receive my gift i felt normal..ya..after we parted we didn msg each other...
hope to visit aunt and grandfather tml...its been a long time since i saw aunt and grandfather i missed them..a few days ago aunt called me and asked me when i visiting her..so i hope to see them soon =)
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Thursday, April 23, 2009
windy
1:00am
i will never walk alone..though i seemed to be for now...it might sounds stupid...deceiving myself...but this phrase ' tml will be a better day ' has became my life motto...
suddenly theres a gust of wind blew...its very big...and it was so suddenly...
i find it is difficult for me to trust someone completely...i always feel when i gave my trust to that person somehow he or she will did something that will disappointed me greatly...perharps i grew up in a family where no one trust one another..perharps i'm the one who is at fault...
i just found out ever since i returned from cambodia my fitness had decreased...guess i nd to do gym again...
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
windy
12:48am
today i met up with ginger and bin for interviewing a packer job..ytd i saw this job ads on zao bao..so i decided to call...the guy on the phone seemed friendly...so i decided to ask ginger and bin along...
the 3 of us were punctual...when i called the guy, whos name is william, he was at the carpark near eunos mrt station..things started to get fishy when he asked us to lie abt our particulars...later then we realised william is not the interviewer..he is an agent..so when we got employed he will earn commission..he told us if we lie the chances of us being employed will be higher...do he think we are that naive ? he just want to earn his commission !!! i had to lie that i already completed my ns and only managed to study till o level...to think getting a diploma cert seemed a shameful thing...ginger even need to lie he lives in bedok coz the company only want to hire those living in bedok area !! he told us names of certain army camps so when the interviewer asked us which camp we were stationed we can tell him lol
that chap william fetch us to the factory but dropped us halfway and asked us to take another van behind -_-" so the other van drove us to the factory...
after the interview we went to boon lay but when we reach there the company already hired ppl...so its kinda wasted trip...next we went to jurong coz they also hiring packers...it is from a job agency...recruit express...but compared to the previous agent we dun have to lie abt our particulars...in the end the packers job is at TUAS !! but the agent who attended us said she will give us a call if theres a job offer...hope so (:
just when we leaving recruit express william called and said we can start work on thursday...he want us to meet him at sheng xiong at 7:15am...i still ponder if i shld work coz i dun the way i lie to get a job...i just feel i let my conscience down...and it is a desipicable way to get a job...i am worried for ginger coz he had to travel from queenstown...and the pay is low...
tml i decided to look for jobs at cafe...i dun mind working in F&B...at first i was worried because i have bad exp working as a waiter...but i believe i can do it...i must learn...to seriously...believe in myself..perharps thats the main reason why i always cant seemed to play well in football...although cal kin and sing hoe taught me a lot...come on zhaohong !!!
p.s suddenly remind of one song of its lyrics...也许是因为我不够温柔，不能分旦你的悠愁。。
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Friday, April 17, 2009
cloudy
12:18am
bought straits time and found a few jobs that interest me...plan to call them tml..theres one which hired cook without exp...sounds interesting...theres one restaruant hiring barista...logistic without exp...hopefully can got one...
recently something bad happened to family...father and mother had a serious argument...i felt helpless and useless everytime they quarrel...i dunno how to help them...
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Thursday, April 16, 2009
cloudy
12:33am
today went to sch for ocp meeting...all we did is submit the boarding pass and receive the maleria pills...watched a video did by fellow ocp teamates noel...still we havent receive ocp certs...
went for a meal together with various ocp team mates...present were jiang nan yong feng bin rui alwyn hong wei jun jie yan feng ming feng rebecca toh siti sarah mei xuan shi hui kian hao syarif hao jie...we went to tm swensen...though we wanted to have a meal at tampines one...i spent 18 dollars total...plus transport fare i spend rough 2o plus...i had to cut down my expenses...
next a few of us went for bowling at shi hui's condo...its quite boring and i almost fall alsp...as the machine used for record the scores are faulty...so it seemed pointless to play...
i am tired of seperation...as time goes by...i started to get immune to the sorrow of seperation...its simple...just say bye and turn away...walk off...this might sound unfriendly...but i feel much better...especially when u bid farewell to someone whom u think might not see again and might think of everyday...
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009
sunny
12:45am
today, i went to spca with mei xuan, a friend i know from ocp 2009. This is only my 2nd time visiting spca...the first time i rmb is with wen hao...during sec sch days...but nv actually went to see the dogs...so this is my first time actually visiting the dogs at spca...
i was chatting with mei xuan ytd when she told me she wanted to visit the dogs at spca before sch starts...i was thinking since i have nth to do the next day, moreover i had never actually see the doggies at spca and previously i agreed to go spca with mei xuan, i decided to tag along...
we meet for lunch at bedok inter before proceed to spca...it was actually quite near to mei xuan hrs...we played with the dogs although the gates kept us and the doggies apart..there were a few nice and cute dogs...i like one english cocker spanish..but i forgotten its name...
we stayed ard 1 and a half hr before leaving...mei xuan was going to meet xue qi to do a report in sch...as the time is still early i suggest to bring my oscar down to let her play with him...mei xuan happily agreed..initially oscar was frighten..as usual...but slowly he started to accept mei xuan...
after mei xuan done her report we meet for dinner at mac at sch opposite before bidding farewell at the bus stop...
i am glad to know mei xuan as a friend through this ocp trip...she is nice to chat with...and i hope our friendship will continue...
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Sunday, April 12, 2009
drizzel
8:38pm
today is the 3rd day i came back from cambodia for ocp 2009. Compared to last year's trip, this year trip is more enjoyable and unforgettable...enjoyable because i had to chance to interact with the kids more compared to last year...becoz i was working at their training center last year while this year i was working at hope village...so i had more opportunities to see the kids..say hello to them..during cultural night i enjoyed more than last year..playing with vimol..after work i will play with sophea....and also this time mr andy kwek gave us more freedom so we can go anywhere we like during our staying at phnom phmn...unforgettable becoz i went to places where i nv went last year...like the palace at the capital...beautiful structure...
however the teams this year were not as harmony as last year's team...maybe becoz this year the number is larger...and maybe its more difficult for a larger number of ppl to remain harmony...internal politics circled within the team...i dun wish to point fingers at anyone but i personally think its the leader's responsibility to unite the team...instead of helping her friends when conflict happens...thats why i dun like cui wen as a leader...she is a gd person...a gd friend..when someone is not feeling well she will show her concern..but when it comes to leadership and working as a team i think she still has much to learn...
now i'm back...spore...a fast paced city..unlike the simple life the villagers live in cambodia...hopefully i can find a job asap...i hope to work under a sports wear brand...simply becoz i like sports...and i will enjoy promoting what i like to the customer...i am tired to sell things i myself dun lie...i dun have excellant promoting skills...so thats the reason i hope to find a job selling things i like...everlast converse nike adidas these brands hopefully can enter any one of them...
hopefully i can meet yixuan soon..now shes working at fcuk...dunno when she have the time..i got a braclet with her name sewed on it...hope she will like it...
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