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just received 2 of my term test paper...i must say i did fairly...ceqtech 72/100 , icc 31/50...as for another paper automvs got to wait till friday...i thought i could do better for icc...as the marks deducted were not questions which i skip for not knowing how to solve but carelessness...and once again carelessness haunt my life...i could have get 38 or even 40 ! as for ceqtech i am quite contented as i predicted i will get btw 70 ~ 75...hopefully my automvs can get a better grade so can highen the chance for me to get the best improvement award.
during the eve of xmas i met cal and we had a buffet lunch at sake and turned out ala cart !! so we nd to pay every plates we ate each person abt 30 plus !!! cal said he will never go to sake again !! after that we went to the cathay to play ps3 pro evoloution soccer...i was badly defeated by him !! we finished playing abt 5 plus then cal went to meet his friend...i met ah gui and we went for dinner at crystal jade then spend our time slacking till 12 am...gui brought me to some places i nv visited before like the highest floor of the esplanade and i must say the view is beautiful...i hope i can brn my loved one to there and admire the scenary together...we also went to sit infront of sir stamford raffles and drink our starbuck hot choco and chat...i am fortunate to know gui as a friend and a privilege as i can learnt from him as he share his exp with me...though we only know for abt 8 mths ??? hes one of my ocp teamates...
this year xmas i sent almost all of my hp contacts a xmas greeting msg...some reply...some didn...and for those who reply some ask me who am i ? its clear that they already deleted my contact...those were my ex sec classmates...i am not surprise at all as firstly i had not contact with them for a long long time....3 years maybe ? secondly the old beh zhaohong was a hated figure in chai chee sec...i used to be a sensitive and bad tempered guy who wanted to show off yet know nth....a saying empty vessel makes the most noise is best to describe the old me...fights occured during my aslt year in sec and at that moment i was wondering what the fuck happen to me ? why am i seemed to against the world and push all the blame to those who offened me...now come to think of it i realised the fault lies on me...a real man is not afraid to admit his mistake thats why i am not afraid to tell others the old me...
i didn tell them who am i..coz i dun believe its important...whats important is that i had shared my festival joy with them...they might not know it but the god in my heart will...
this photo was taken on 19/12/08...this day 14 children from the hope village in cambodia came to tp for a visit...hope village is the place i lived during my ocp in cambodia...i was elated to see those kids again ! i dunno many of them as i did not interact with them much during my 8 days in hope village...which i regretted...even then i still enjoy spending time with them and the founder of the hope village mr robort kee...i read one of the book he wrote...i was greatly touched by his thoughts and ambitious.....his words inspired me in someway...he is willing to scarfice his personal interests to help the orphans...i hope he can fulfil his goal of builiding 10 orphanges by 2015 so more orphans can be saved and taken care of...
after parting with the children we went to bugis for a steamboat dinner followed by a movie...during our steamboat dinner they commented that i am very quiet while eating as usually i am quite funny and chatty...maybe i dun have the habit to talk while eating lol !
hope i can save up enough $ so can go backpack tour with ginger to hope village again !!! really wish to see those kids again...hopefully i can start a job after my examination
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Sunday, December 7, 2008
This photo was taken after attending lalita's ballet dance performance at victoria theater on 27th. This is my first time attending such event. At first i was worried i might get bored and fall aslp..but it turned out to be ginger instead LOL ! Overall the performance is nice..especially the small kids with different ages of group...credits to lalita...she danced well...i nd to depend on nicholas to point out where is she coz my eyesight is bad LOL !
the bouquet of sunflower was bought by us as a token of our appreciation to lalita as well as congratuating her for successfully ending her performance. I was the one suggesting and i thought sunflower symbolises friendship and hope..hope she will like it.
this is the epl table on 7th dec before man utd ys sunderland. i was so glad that we managed to defeat blackburn...before that match liverpool had 2 goaless draw again weak opponents fulham and west ham respectively...frankly speaking we were awlful in the first half..and i was fucking frustrated...when alonso scored the first goal finally i felt relieved...by expressing in a vulgarity way FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK NBCB !!!! chelsea won the other match so if liverpool draw we will drop to 2nd again.
the title race is ficere..nobody knows who will emerge victory till the end...once again this shows the fighting spirt of the reds...and i tgave me hope for studying my upcoming termtest...the first half was best suited to summarise my previous sem performance...disgraced...but things turned well for us and hopefully...i can do well...
my biggest dream is not to earn 1 million by how many years old...drive wad ferrari...open a shop be a boss....its simple..to get nominated for the best improving award this sem...i dunno whether our MP/SIP will get included for our gpa...coz i dun think i did a gd job for my mp/sip...i choosed the wrong project..and an uncaring supervisor...right now i just nd to focus my term test, projects for my modules and finally final year exam...
on 5th dec, is our usual sports day. we went to ginger hrs and stay overnite. we played a fun game called police and murderer. each of us will receive a card and joker means that person is the murderer and ace is the police...the rest are civilians...the murderer had to wink his eyes to the civilians and 'kill' the civilians and the police had to spot the murderer. its fun and exciting as the loser will have to drink my vouka or xo haha...but in the end majority drank mixer...the alst round is the funniest coz i dragged ginger down...i caught the wrong murderer and the correct one is bing rui...we had to drink pure vouka...i nearly repeat history and vomit but i manage to recover...maybe last time got train before lol...
after the game we went to watch tv awhile then suddenly i got the urge to share my matters with the others...yes it was a ger i like but i dun deserve to be with her coz my academic performance, compared to her was a far far cry...its like a toad wanting a swan flesh...the majority of them know who is she...but i cant mentioned here...speaking out feels great but the next day when des, who fell aslp the day before ask me wad i said i was too embarrased to speak out...and des know her too...
the main reason why i determine to work hard this sem is her...its my blessing to befriend ginger yf and bing rui who inspired me to work hard and crack jokes that are infinaty...especially ginger who willing to spend his time revise with me at the sch library after sch...
i dun like to think too far...some said i lack ambitious...but i think otherwise...i just dun want to say say and say...i want action...to prove myself...i wan to achieve things step by step...i want to prove those who look down or think little of me and those who deserted me....
speaking of her i believe she is happy now as she got herself a bf who achieve the same academic status as her or even better than her...i believe she will feel proud and blessing...i strongly believe as long the person u like is happy its enough...i dun feel bad if i saw them together hand by hand...i been lying to myself that i dun have feelings for her but i can lied to myself again and again...whos to blame ? myself...if i did well for my previous sem i will cfm try to woo her...shes the most hardworking ger i came across for my 20 years life in this world...i dun give a fuck if ppl ard me critise her...to me shes my hope...i strongly believe in destiny...nobody knows wad will happen in the future...
things were not looking gd in my family...father is having a hard time earning $ as more and more taxis come out as many ppl who are either lost their jobs due to the bad economic come out to be taxi driver...father even nd to borrow $ from my brother...i wished i can help him but now i am jobless..if i lend him i wun have enough to pay for my future bills...
i wish i can share my father's burden...but he wun...he will never...though he didn teach and guide me much during my childhood at least i was never starve and have a shelther...and he had to tolerate a wretch who only knows how to complain for the past 20 odd years...
but thats wad life is...so i can learn...
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