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another disappointment...hot tomato soup didn called...they fucking said will reply me even ifs a no..fuck them...but after cheesecake cafe exp i had some mental preparation..so ytd i called another job which i also found in the new paper..its a pub waiter job...i went down to paye lebar...the whole environment...hmmm not very " clean "...however the lady boss decided to hire me...shes fast..quick..no dilly dally...perharps she nd manpower badly...but theres one problem...the working hour..its 10 PM to 3 AM !! though theres transport to go home but i does no exp nitelife before...imagine my father sniffing cigrette stain...hes is gonna fucking kill me !
theres another factor which i nd to seriously consider : schwork. i am wry working at the pub might affect my studies due to lack of slp..i told myself this is my last chance to prove myself and redeem my pride...i cant afford to screw up again like i did in previous semester...
jie gave me a number selling kappa at various department store..i jus called...and the answerer said hes not free..its like a tight slap on my face...fuck him..but nvm i bear with it..i gonna fucking call him tml and see wad tricks he play then...if i got it i can work 2 jobs...afternoon shift for kappa then rush to pub and work till 3 am..reach home maybe ard 4am bath slp then work kappa...thats why i plan to stay back do my self revision from the very first day of this coming semester...
i used to work 2 jobs last time..i still rmb...16 years old after my n lvl...downtown east and airport...i only manage to slp 4 hrs a day...but for the kappa cum pub i can afford to slp more though...still i had the exp of working 2 jobs so shlden be a problem...thats wad exp counts...if i didn done that i wouldnt even think of working 2 jobs now...
tml gonna start my eng revision...had nv did any essay after last meeting with cal..after that will be joining sing ho and co for football...
during these days of gloomy mood caused by rejected of jobs again and again which slowly turned me into a walking corpse...theres one thing that lightens up my mood..giving me hope..nonono not any dream gers i fancy...yea its Liverpool FC...first thats the victory against psv where keane scored his first goal for Liverpool FC and stevie g scored his 100th goal for Liverpool FC...then its the comeback which ended moments ago...3-2 at eastland...first we fuck man utd and now its man city...
the pic above is the third goal we scored...thats kyut first goal in the BPL since last nov...nth proud abt but this goal gave us a vital 3 points and stay on the way with temporary leader chelsea...during HT we were trailing 2 goals down...but in the second half we scored 3 goals and staged a dramatic comeback...ues man city did have a player send off for a ugly tackle on xabi..thats was a straight red...no excuse...hey shut up huges...that gaffer was the manager for man city...he will regret for his reaction after he saw the reply...but we scored the third goal after skrtel was off for his injury...
this will definately gave us a major boast on our confident...and i am looking forward to see agger back in action !
ok back to my job hunting...i still havent told my father that i will be working at a pub...however if i were to look at a positive side...this working exp will develop my character building instead of leading me to astray...i will feel more confident when i talk to someone and can kiss goodbye to the bad old shuttering days...sure working at a pub will befriend ppl who was well not gd ppl i suppose...but i believe which friends are gd and which one are bad...as for gers...i seriously doubt i will find any one i can share my trouble and happiness with...looks yes...character...hell fucking no...
life is a gamble...and i am staking with my future on this two pt job....aunt mary kept telling me now is to focus on my studies and dun work at lowly part time job...find a decent one like in an office after i graduate...fuck she dun understand...whenver i tried to explain to her she will change another topic...this pissed me...yes she paid for my sch fees when my father was hard in cash...i reallly appreciate her and told myself i will repay her someday...but she really dun understand my situation...i nd to pay for my hp bill...starhub cable bill...monthly concession...and also my textbooks which i nd to purchase for this coming semester...if i still cant find a job i will spent all my savings and will have trouble paying the coming bills...if i am born well fed i wouldnt care so much...
today ginger des and yf fly to japan...how i wish to join them...sigh i cant possibly paid the air tickets...my father had to pay for the house expenses...i am not my brother...who dun give a shit to this family..yes i didn pay the house eletriciy bills...i am not the only one watching the starhub cable...my father likes to watch chinese news my mother likes to watch animal documentary...even my brother will watch chinese show sometimes...and i used to work from noon to nite...i treat the cable tv as a way to repay my parents debts...though i cant afford luxury food or activities to repay them..
i wishes ginger des and yf bon voyage...i didn sms them coz i dun wan them to misunderstand that this msg is a reminder for them to buy presents for me...no way...their plane left at 1am...they shld be on their way now...
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